Tough Decisions

I have my third interview for the possible position in Libertyville in approximately 2 hours. It is exciting to be doing an interview with someone at that high of a level in the company, but I’m also having a ton of second thoughts about this position. I can see alot of possibility for it to become re-org’d into non-existence. I also have been thinking often about how much I enjoy what I do now. While it isn’t what I want to do forever, it also is a pretty sweet gig. I enjoy the role I’m most often playing now, which is only barely technical. Still, I feel like the people that do well here enjoy the technical part more than the leadership/management aspect. Because of that, I question whether I will continue to be considered a top performer despite my aversion to the technical innards of what we do. I generally just learn as much as I need to know, researching as needed. I think, although it’s never been said to me, that I miss some things because I don’t know those technical innards I don’t want to. I still manage to ferret it out eventually, but someone who was more Engineer-brained and less Organization/Profit-brained would figure it out sooner or just know it due to some intellectual curiosity. This has become an issue on my current project. There have been so many things that I just never even thought to look up or ask about. Granted, this is why we have a technical team, and it is expected for me to rely on them, but it’s also expected that I’m going to find most issues earlier in the process than I seemed to on this project. I don’t know. On one hand, I feel like I’m very useful where I am right now, and usefulness is critical to my feeling of self-worth. On the other hand, I think I’d be at least equally useful in the new position. I just don’t know for sure that I would be. I also feel like there’s only so many people out there that can do what I do now, because it requires this balance of technical and non-technical skills. I love the people I work with. I like my managers, and I have influence here. I’m actively improving the way we do things, all the time. When I bring up an issue, it’s taken seriously. That’s the sort of thing that really only comes once people know you, respect you, etc. Sometimes, I think it’s crazy that I’m considering giving that up. It’s not like there’s not positions here that I could move into that would allow me to back off the technical aspect. ::sigh:: It’s difficult. I don’t know. But for now, I’m in a pretty outfit, and I’m off to grab lunch and then do this interview.